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His timing is always right; be patient

“God has perfect timing; never early, never late. It takes a little patience and it takes a lot of faith but it’s worth the wait.”

- unknown

 

Hi friends! Are many of you like me and have felt behind in life? You see your friends and family getting married, having kids, having a successful career, maybe a beautiful home, while you are nowhere near any of that? Sometimes it can be really hard. Watching everyone around you live a life you dream about and pray for. As years go by, sometimes our patience gets less and less. We start to wonder, “How much longer do I have to wait?” “Will I know when the right thing for me comes along?” “Is there something I should be doing differently?”


It can take a toll on someone’s happiness when we feel far away from where we want to be in life. We may feel we made mistakes along the way that led us to here. Maybe we feel that we need to make a really big change to get out of our rut. Or maybe we find it hard to even be surrounded by family and friends who we used to find so much joy in, just because it reminds us of everything we are still waiting for. If you have felt this way before, you are definitely not alone.


Lately, I have been noticing it more and more how behind I feel in life. I’m single, I have a job that is decent, but not my passion, and I am currently looking for a place to live. I am nowhere near where I thought I would be a few years back when I envisioned my future. All of my friends and family are either married, engaged, or dating someone, have a beautiful home, and have a successful career. I’m not going to lie when I say it has been hard being around them lately. I don’t want to sound ungrateful, because I am very thankful for everything in my life, and that’s what I try to hold on to while I wait.


Although I am thankful for things in my life, I started trying to figure out where I went wrong or what I could do to change to get where I want to be. This is the first time in my life I feel that I have no direction. Because of this, I started feeling sad, angry, and confused with myself. I wondered why God was making me wait so long for something I wanted so badly when everyone around me was happy and thriving. It took me way too long to realize that the reason I felt this way was because I had not fully put my trust and faith in God and His plan.


surrounded by success,

but it’s not mine

jealousy and sadness

start welling up inside.


I wonder how long

how long It will take

to be where they are

how long I need to wait


in all the sadness,

I sometimes forget my faith

that God is working something out

more than I could have ever asked for


trust and blindly following Him

is the whole purpose in our life

when we forget that and focus on our own wants

we forget the promise that His plan is always on time


One would think having faith means it is easy to wait for God’s plan, but having anxiety like I do makes me want to have control over everything. Not knowing where my future is going can be extremely stressful to me. I want to have all the answers and understand what I need to do in order to get where I want to be. The thing is, the whole point in faith is to follow God’s plan blindly and trust that He has your best interest in heart. That’s not always the easiest thing to do when you want to have control over everything.


When God has a plan for someone, I believe He puts you in situations that prepare you for what He has planned. These last couple years, I have been having more breakthroughs with my anxiety than I ever have before. Some days are better than others, but I know that every feeling or emotion is a step closer to getting a better handle on my anxiety. Maybe that’s the whole point. Maybe all of the work and breakthroughs are God’s way of preparing me for what He has in store.



Has there been a time in your life that maybe was God’s way of preparing you for something better? Was there ever pain or heartbreak that ultimately led to you being a better version of yourself? God has a mysterious way of working and, honestly, it’s not up to us to understand it. It’s up to us to follow Him and trust His way. My understanding of faith is knowing God has our backs and a plan for us, even when we don’t see it.


If you feel behind in life, while everyone seems to be way ahead of you, just trust that what’s meant for you will happen. In the meantime, it is important to work on ourselves, our passions, and our relationship with God. I believe that if we do this, everything will fall into place, like God has had planned the whole time. Thank you for continuing on this journey with me. Stay tuned, friends!



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